Blurry Weekend

I’ve learnt somewhere from someone or some source about something very true to the bone yet very hard to digest. We, humans, can’t live sanely without work. That’s the fact. We work hard to live and live hard to work, it’s a never-ending cycle. The criminal out in the streets is seen as an individual that is unable to work or unable to find work, and therefore begins to hate and steals to live. Its too often we see elderly people who are so eager and desperate for work but aren’t given any because of work capabilities. Or closes to ourselves, we see the young adult desperate for work, vowing to himself that he will do anything anyone gives him.

It’s not money that motivates us, it’s about having a purpose in life. I can say so for myself. I spent roughly 7 months looking and applying for any job out there. Initially, I was only applying for career jobs but after a couple of months, I applied for literally anything available. I remember telling myself “ok, you have no experience, you have no skills, just take anything and learn more”. Here I am, 7 months later in a full time job, hunched over a computer and getting dehydrated from office air-conditioning. I know that if I leave this joint, I’d be much happier with the time I can sleep in and the time I can do my own personal things. But I know for a fact, that I’d go crazy when I realise that my savings has dwindled down to rice and water every night.

I’m having these thoughts because it’s a Monday morning. Monday mornings are notoriously damaging to the health. It’s the elevator stop at Hell’s drop. All weekend, you ride the elevator up, higher and higher not worrying about a single thing… then along comes Monday. My weekend, for a fact, was awesome. There’s something awesome about spending time with your partner even if you don’t leave the house at all. I believe it’s still awesome if you are having rice and water every night and it’s done with your partner. It must be awesome if he spend most of the weekend eye-fucking your butt ;) all those half-squats at the gym were painful but well worth it!

Lately my cash reserves are slipping through my hands, I need to stop spending so much. But, before that, I need to buy myself a new set of sexy but slutty lingerie. For my man. Yeh… I’m just THAT great :)