Cute means ugly but interesting...

"Word of the Post" Post

ne·far·i·ous [ni-fair-ee-uhs] –adjective
extremely wicked or villainous; iniquitous: a nefarious plot.

I just realised that I didn't end up using the last "word of the post" in my post so I definately will try to for today's post. This one is slightly easier to use because theres so many nefarious acts happening under our noses... slightly less planty, if I may say so.

You know what's one of the most annoying things on my mind right now? Why do guys like the look of the typical no-makeup-skinny-fragile-girly-girl? I just don't understand this! Do you enjoy to be poked in the ribs by her spine when you spoon her? Do you hug her ever so gently just in case you break her in half?

Maybe its spurred by male ego and the fact that you are a heroic man, out to save a weak fragile damsel in distress?

I was at the gym recently and an asian guy was in the same group fitness class as me. He was tall, sort of athletic (wasn't sure of his face because I didn't have any contacts on...so I was blind as a bat). But anyway, in front of him was this skinny CHILD looking type of girl. She wasn't able to grasp the moves in the class, and was just... flinging her arms around. Don't get me wrong, I felt sorry for her and am not out to mock her bodyattacking ways, we've all been group fitness beginners and I feel sympathetic for her. What I'm saying is, this child-like woman was this guy's girlfriend. This girl would make a stick figure go on a diet...

I bet she never does any type of sports, because if she did, instead of breaking a nail, she'd break an arm.

And what about in the bedroom, is she a minx in the covers? To me, I can picture these types of girls being on their backs and letting the man do all the work. And THIS is what it will be for the next 10 years. They'll squeak if it hurts them and maybe that's what a guy likes? Maybe guys like domination? total power over a girl? I can't lingere being manufactured for someone so small... do they even have EXTRA EXTRA EXTRA EXTRA SMALL?

What makes a guy go for a girl like that? Actually, maybe the 98% of the asian male population like girls like this. They're pure and "cute". If only those asian girls knew what the phrase "cute" was actually used for.

Cute [ku-te] - adjective
Ugly but interesting.

I often hear "I love women with no make up" or "I love natural girls" or even "make up makes a girl ugly, I want my girlfiend to be natural". You know what I say to these people? I say FUCK OFF. Have you SEEN a chick ala naturale? HAVE YOU? And I bet when you see these au naturale girls, you don't even look twice. So wait, I know what you want. You want a beautiful au naturale girl? Aint gonna happen, unless you're rich and are looking to buy tons of LV, Prada and Gucci bags, don't even go there. You guys are so hyprocritical. Why do you think so many movies are created on the cliche "ugly-girl-becomes-beautiful"... the ugly girl without make up goes around school, is so invisible that if she falls over, no one really notices. THEN then "ugly girl" puts on some *gasp* MAKEUP and sexy lashes, curls her hair and oh my god... she gets noticed and snags the hottest guy in the school.

Notice how, its never like this:

1. Pretty girl with awesome make up is rejected by all guys.
2. Pretty girl decides to do something with her life, she hates being bullied.
3. Pretty girl wipes off all her makeup one day, leaves her hair unstraightened and is now a wierd straight-but-wavy-affair.
4. Gets noticed because of her bare face and snags the hottest guy.

So now, you stupid hypocrites need to pull your finger out of your asses and get back to reality. Every celebrity around you has facepaint. It's war paint. It's an ability to differentiate a woman who can express herself. Who cares if she likes smoldering blue eyeshadow or sexy flicks outside her eyes, she's an artist.

I'm drowning in sorrow...

I realised that my vocab-list isn't up to par with other individuals that are my age. That is 18. Ok. 21. Fine. 23.

So I decided that each time I blog, I shall put up a new random word and use this word in my post... somewhere.


bulb·let [buhlb-lit] - noun Botany.
a small bulb or bulblike structure, esp. one growing in the axils of leaves, as in the tiger lily, or replacing flowers, as in the onion.

The lack of updates lately is due to my increased workload at work. I've been slingshotted with powerpoints, brochures, newsletters, pamphlets and the majority of these are needing to be created from bottom up. I can't say I don't love what I do, because I do. I love using programs like photoshop, indesign etc to create promotional material but I don't do well under pressure.

I'm a crumbler.

I'm in no mood today. Don't want to be here, at work. I want to be in bed and have a good cry. I want to drench my pillow in tears, then sleep on the pillow and wake up with rashes down my neck. I know I need to stop being so fucking apathic about life and get on with it. It's so hard though...

Even realising I've gotten fat, hasn't made me this depressed about life. Sure I got fat, but with enough determination towards exercise and healthy food, I can overcome it. To be seriously depressed can only mean one thing, a glitch in the paradise known as love. You know what I think....

Paradise isn't love, it's actually in the early stages of dating.

1. You meet someone worthwhile.
2. Butterflies in the stomach.
3. You flirt.
4. He flirts back.
5. Phone messages during the day about meaningless things. "I saw a hole in the wall today..." will prompt a reply "Wow... your house is random".
6. Then you get the butterfly attack again.
7. You wake up thinking about him.
8. You go to sleep thinking about him.
9. Does he like me? Does he not like me? "When's he going to ask me out?"
10. You have sexy and naughty dreams about him. You can picture him doing these naughty things to you in his bed...in your bed... in the kitchen... in the car...
11. You see each other and get the butterfly attack once again...

These early stages of dating are the best and can only be described as a sort of paradise where you are momentarily dazed and everything seems so perfect!

But then comes love. You fall in love and heartache thrives in this environment. With love comes the risk of heartache. Cheating, flirting, breaking up, fighting, swearing, beating... you can't help but be put at risk to these. Once you love someone everything bad they do to you magnifies 1000 times, so much that some people contemplate suicide for something as small as "he left me for another woman...".

If you were only dating and having fun... these girls would say "Fuck him, he cheated on me so I'm gonna go find another fish in the sea."

This is my exact problem, I am a girl in love. Hence, my middle name is Idiot. Mr V and I haven't had a fight in years, I shit you not, and yesterday it seems Facebook has hit home again, Miss M's friend thinks Mr V is sleazy, a comment posted online in a photo of the above two people in a club. My brain is in turmoil! It's in melt down mode and I want to know how to shut it down. The photo itself isn't the problem, I have developed trust in the person that I care about and therefore, a larger portion of my mind is telling me to stop worrying because he's faithful to you. A slightly smaller, less superior part of my mind is slamming his fist against my brain wall, shrieking "People say he's a sleaze...why WHY WHY?!!"

I mentally want to throw my head against the wall.

Perhaps I'm over-exaggerating the situation? I should be overjoyed that there has actually been no 'hidden kinky' business going on behind my back and that he comes home to me.

But something is definately pulling at my heart strings...